What is it about loving someone that makes you feel so close?
What is that connection? What causes it to happen? Someone who once was a stranger to you becomes your best friend, your companion, your life partner, the one you just can’t do without. How does all this happen?
Why when that person is far away it feels like they are right there with you. As if you could have a conversation with them at that moment. No matter how hard you try not to think of them, you just can’t manage to do but that! And when they hurt, you hurt with them, and when they happy, you are happy with them. All this is so crazy yet, there is nothing I would rather want than to be in love with you.
The only rational answer I have to this is that we have exchanged hearts.
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
Tuesday, 10 February 2009
New adventure
So I have moved to Cape Town & I love it! I took a big step but I knew I needed to do it. I’ve craved a change for so long. I have started a new job, a new life. Meeting new people & making new friends. I am learning new things and realize again there is so much to be learned.
I am staying with a lady from church until I find a place of my own. She is so sweet and spoils me. Everyone has been so friendly to me. To an extend I see a different world here, different people than what I’m use to. I’ve met a married lesbian couple, who seem happy & they are lovely people. I am so excited as I have been invited for supper at their house! A colleague of mine is gay and has been with the same partner for 13 yrs. Wow! It blesses me to see this, inspires me to be myself. Now I have friends coming over for coffee tonight that I haven’t seen in a long time. I wonder if they will notice a change in me, I wonder if I will be brave enough to be honest about myself.
This is my 2nd week in my new job and it’s challenging. It feels like everything I have known before has been wiped out. I realized yesterday I definitely need to do more theology studies & read more in order to be well equipped for this. But god knows what He is doing. He always does & always has a plan. I am grateful for that. Grateful that He loves me & cares so much & blesses me way more than what I could ever deserve.
Well, that’s the update of my life for now.
I am staying with a lady from church until I find a place of my own. She is so sweet and spoils me. Everyone has been so friendly to me. To an extend I see a different world here, different people than what I’m use to. I’ve met a married lesbian couple, who seem happy & they are lovely people. I am so excited as I have been invited for supper at their house! A colleague of mine is gay and has been with the same partner for 13 yrs. Wow! It blesses me to see this, inspires me to be myself. Now I have friends coming over for coffee tonight that I haven’t seen in a long time. I wonder if they will notice a change in me, I wonder if I will be brave enough to be honest about myself.
This is my 2nd week in my new job and it’s challenging. It feels like everything I have known before has been wiped out. I realized yesterday I definitely need to do more theology studies & read more in order to be well equipped for this. But god knows what He is doing. He always does & always has a plan. I am grateful for that. Grateful that He loves me & cares so much & blesses me way more than what I could ever deserve.
Well, that’s the update of my life for now.
Tuesday, 03 February 2009
The hate-filled emptiness gives me a sense of satisfaction I’ve never felt before.
As cold and scary as it should be so soothing it is to me, so appealing, so freeing to this caged soul of mine.
No more pretend, just the raw me
yet I don’t let you see me, you world of selfish fools, of pretenders
just like me…you pretend to be
As cold and scary as it should be so soothing it is to me, so appealing, so freeing to this caged soul of mine.
No more pretend, just the raw me
yet I don’t let you see me, you world of selfish fools, of pretenders
just like me…you pretend to be
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